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Worth It by SteelGavel

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I'm going through a bit of personal hell here. I have for the past few years. A hell that is unending it seems. 3 jobs lost, mother lost, distanced from brother, car trouble (understatement), contemplation of suicide, near loss of a sister. And wondering if God is angry with me or simply pittying me. The truth is, for the time being, this image is all I have to show for 3 miserable years. And the point is that if I can do it, you sure as hell better find a way too. Do not repost. Show respect.
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stuffedbellylover Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2013
Sorry to hear about it... but maybe it can influence your art in a good way finally!

Best wishes,

gotta-be-plump Featured By Owner Jan 8, 2013
I hope things improve for you in the new year. You're one of my favorite artists and I bet your work would be welcomed in many art galleries all over the world. Hang in there. (Hope that doesn't sound too cliche', heh).
Barkis1 Featured By Owner Jan 7, 2013
2 Timothy 3:1
"But know this, that in the last days critical times hard to deal with will be here."
I know the drill ever since 2008.

We cope. God helps us in ways we don't see:
One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.
In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand.
Sometimes there were two sets of footprints,
other times there were one set of footprints.

This bothered me because I noticed
that during the low periods of my life,
when I was suffering from
anguish, sorrow or defeat,
I could see only one set of footprints.

So I said to the Lord,
"You promised me Lord,
that if I followed you,
you would walk with me always.
But I have noticed that during
the most trying periods of my life
there have only been one
set of footprints in the sand.
Why, when I needed you most,
you have not been there for me?"

The Lord replied,
"The times when you have
seen only one set of footprints,
is when I carried you."
Mary Stevenson
rampant404 Featured By Owner Jan 7, 2013  Professional Traditional Artist
God, I hear you- The last few years have been pretty damn hard for me too, but good on you for keeping with it. My pop always told me there's only one thing to do when you're going through hell... and that's to keep going.
kaoruobsessed Featured By Owner Jan 7, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I'm so sorry that you're caught in such a downward spiral. I don't want to say I understand because that's not going to help YOU, so...just know if you ever need to talk I'm more than willing. Ive gone through a lot of the same pains, so I could at least try to help you through that. Just, note me or email me if ya wanna talk.
LumyRainstar Featured By Owner Jan 7, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I know how you feel. maybe not exactly, but pretty damn close. I got back on meds last year because I was having the same thoughts. Things still suck a lot, but it's slowly getting better. If you ever want to talk I'd be glad to be a listening ear for you. And also, just keep on keeping on, things have to get better. <3
SKIN-PILE Featured By Owner Jan 7, 2013
Hey you ~
I feel you on the downward spiral, and do know if you ever need anyone to talk too, you can message me.
- Michelle /that girl that worked at K-mart with you for less than a week.
SteelGavel Featured By Owner Jan 7, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Hey good to hear from you again michelle, they let everyone go! can you believe that? EVERYBODY. I know its retail, but you can't help but feel a little used, especially since the idea was to keep a few. anyways take care of yourself and thanks for the message. Good to see you again.
SKIN-PILE Featured By Owner Jan 8, 2013
I can believe it - I quit because I was being mistreated by a few people/managers and being made to look ignorant.(When they made an obvious mistake, it was my fault... example: remember when that one lady apparently told EVERYONE to wear blue collared shirt and black pants? come on... she obviously didn't yet she said WE were ALL just not listening. No way did five of us magically NOT hear her. I hate people who can't say, "Oh, I made a mistake."

It was not something I was willing to deal with.
I do not deserve to be treated that way. At ANY job, I should be valued as an employee, not looked down on and told I was stupid in front of customers. All employees should be treated as people, not useless space takers to do labor.
On top of that, I had gotten pneumonia and they still wanted me to work, even though I was in the ER. ~
I'm so sorry to hear about you losing your place though. That is uncalled for, specially since you had the experience they were "supposedly" looking for. I think they led us all on. ;__;'''
I hope you are doing a little better. Keep your head up okay! I am sure a better job will open up for you. You have the skills and personality. ~ You'll do great things.
SteelGavel Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
lol dang. I called in cause I got sick too. They TRIED to pressure me, but yeah... lol You gotta take care of number 1, right? I'm gonna miss prince tho, and Oscar, and ray, and everybody. Just when you get to know people, you gotta split ways. anyways good for you for knowing your limits and taking the time. In retail, the pressure to show up, even if you're half dead is STRONG. Applied for federal aid, going back to school. I urge everyone to do the same if they can. Take care of yourself, nobody else will. Learned from experience. PEACE
SKIN-PILE Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2013
That's hella sad my friend.
I agree, take care of number one.
I will be trying to go back to school after my health is managed better. ;___;'''
I wish you all the luck and best wishes. Take care Sir. ~
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